Monday, December 19, 2011

A Mother's Love

It's amazing how far the journey over the last 2 1/2 years has taken us.  I remember, on May 19th, 2009 feeling so overwhelmed and cheated out of the chance to be Anna Sophia's mommy.  At that time, I couldn't imagine taking the risk of having another child and felt that it would be years into my future before I was ready for that step again.

Well, we think we make plans, but God laughs. ;)  Thanks to the amazing support system I have through family, faith, and friends, I was able to begin to heal and move forward.  Less than a year later, we felt ready to continue our journey as a family and figured it would take a while to get pregnant didn't.

Exactly 19 months after losing my daughter, I was amazingly blessed with a beautiful son.  I remember the moment I had him and he started crying I literally said, "That's my baby.  That's my baby's cry."  I already knew him in this crazy, intricate way.  

Isn't it funny how we plan?  How we think that we can map out our lives and they will go a certain way?  

Anyway, today, I celebrate the life that God so graciously blessed Freddie and I to bring into this world.  The love I have for him is beyond imaginable and beyond explanation.  Words on this page would never do it justice.  And it still amazes me how that tiny little bundle brought Freddie and me all the more closer.  

I play music almost daily while I'm cooking/doing dishes/cleaning/etc...This is when Will and I have some special time, ironically.  We almost always dance. 

I was playing Rascal Flatts, one of my favorite bands.  This song came on and it so perfectly expressed what I wish for my son.  

William Thomas, we pray every day that your life would be blessed.  That you would grow into a strong man who knows his God, knows himself, and knows how to love others.  That you would find grace and mercy in all that you do.  And that you will always know the love your father and I have for you.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Will Does "Gene Simmons"

I teach this sweet boy all kinds of sign language, where his nose, ears, etc. are, but what does he learn?  Obviously, his father has way more influence over him than I do. ;)