Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Too Long

I can't even believe it has been over four months since I have posted anything.  I've had several family members and friends mention that they miss my updates, but I guess I neglected to realize how long it had been.  I've also had a lot of people asking for updates on Freddie, which made me return here.

He has now completed two cycles {4 weeks on, 2 weeks off is a cycle} on the drug Sutent.  So far, he has responded well to the treatment.  He is very rarely sick and seems to physically be feeling very well.  We will not know more about how the drug is affecting the cancer until later this month when we travel to NIH again and does his routine scans, tests, etc.

Meanwhile, his blood sugar has become an increasing concern and he is now on medication to help control it.  He also has to take blood pressure medicine with the Sutent because one side effect of the drug is increased blood pressure.

Thankfully, he is feeling physically well, staying busy with work, and trying to fit in the occasional run.

Mentally, we are both stressed.  Cancer is a b****.  It tries to take over your entire life and destroy everything in its path.  We continue to try to fight it and believe that somehow, someway, we will overcome this.

It is often-times hard to not feel like you are in whole that you continue to dig yourself into.  Our focus continues to be on our family and spending as much time together as we can.
 Each of us faces struggle, but I sometimes wonder how much struggle is enough.

William continues to be our joy, our laughter, our dance, and our love.  He makes each day special and worth having.  I don't know where we would be without him and can't express how grateful we are for him.  God truly has blessed us and for that, we are thankful.

As for me, I continue to play the balancing act with work and home {as any working mom does}.  Some days are harder than others, but each day is worth it.  I continue to try to support Freddie and Will as much as I can and shower them with love and appreciation {Admittedly, I'm not always very good at that. ;)}.

Thank you for lifting us up in your prayers and believing with us.  We are beyond grateful for each person who has been there for us in any way.  Life is tough and without people who love us, we wouldn't be where we are today.

I hope this update finds you well.  Please love your family, friends, and life.  Each day is special and should not be taken for granted.

Blessings and Love,
The Carams