Wednesday, September 29, 2010

You Hold Me Now

So, one of the great things about me being able to stay home is I have really been able to focus my attention back on my relationship with Christ. This fall, I've started going to the weekly women's bible study at our church. So far, it has been a great time for me to delve into God's Word, learn more about who He is, and get to know some great women.

Yesterday, the lesson was on "Jehovah Shammah" - The LORD is There. Along with this lesson, the speaker talked about the holiness of God. At the end of her sermon, she played Hillsong's "You Hold Me Now". I immediately fell in love with the song and went straight to buy it after bible study was over.

I've listened to it several times since yesterday morning, and today on my way home from lunch, I was jamming to it.

Believe it or not, we are already coming up on a year and a half since Anna Sophia left this life for her Heavenly Father. There isn't a day that goes by that she doesn't enter my thoughts in some way, but I must say I have come so far and grown so much from the experience. However, there are still those moments when I ache to hold her, see her, and wish I knew more about who she was and what life would have been like with her.

This morning, while I was listening to the song and focusing on these words, I began to think of her. Here they are:

You Hold Me Now
On that day when I see
All that you have for me
When I see you face to face
There surrounded by your grace

All my fears swept away
In the light of your embrace
When your love is all I need
And forever I am free

Where the streets are made of gold
In your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering, you hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness, no sick or lame
No hiding you hold me now,
You hold me now

In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails

Where your name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of your Name
I'm believing for the day

When the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven rise to You alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering, You hold me now,
You hold me now
No darkness, no sick or lame
No hiding, You hold me now,
You hold me now

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to your name
x4

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering, You hold me now,
You hold me now
No darkness, no sick or lame
No hiding, You hold me now,
You hold me now
x3

So as I am focusing on these words, and it hits me...My baby girl is in a place where there is NO weeping, NO hurts, NO pains, NO suffering, NO darkness, NO sickness...she's with her heavenly father. How could a mother not want that for her child? How could I not want her to be in a place where she is at peace, fulfilled, and full of joy? She never had to really know this earth and it's hurts, sins, and immorality. She never had to face this world with her shortcomings and sickness. She was never hurt physically or emotionally. WOW!

I pulled into my driveway and sat in my car with tears streeming down my face singing this song and realizing that she is with God and God is with me, holding me through this. A peace and comfort washed over me. And now...I'm probably going to be just a little obsessed with this song! ;)

Love and peace,
Emily

1 comment:

heather said...

SO proud of you!!! And so happy for you!