After a very emotional day yesterday, I was comforted this morning when I heard these words sung by Phil Wickham "Safe":
To the one whose dreams have fallen all apart
And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think you're on your own
But you're not alone
Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging seas
Give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
With a love so strong it never lets you go
No you're not alone
You will be safe in His arms. You will be safe in His arms
The hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made, He will be with you always
When everything is falling apart, you will be safe in His arms
We faced a very difficult day yesterday as we remembered Freddie on his birthday. It was a day of ups and downs, but my friend comforted me when she said, "Just think, it's Anna Sophia's first birthday in heaven with her Daddy." Tears, sweet tears.
Grief is so hard. And dealing with the expectations of others and working through what I need to do for William often leaves me forgetting to take care of myself. I feel alone. I feel forgotten. My heart is broken. But, I need to remember to look for peace and comfort in Him and allow Him to hold and heal my heart.